【Double Xun】Know what is like

Chapter 8

Although the slogan of catching up with the Premier League and the United States was in full swing, the farm was still lazy. This land was as thin and barren as her people, and it could not produce decent food even in a blink of an eye.

Not only that, but since May the food quota has been reduced to [-] catties a month, [-] catties. Even if you spend all day in a couch to reduce consumption, it still won't be enough to feed an adult.

Since then, people have often fainted on the sand, and the farm has been unable to enforce orders to work.In order not to cause accidents due to starvation, many RTL cadres began to turn a blind eye and let them go to nearby villages to catch voles or squeeze grass seeds.Professor Feng, who "swept the wool of socialism" not long ago, is now proud of himself. No one thought that one day in the future, they would shave the entire mountain of wool in order to survive.

After a messy chase of field mice, Xun Yu asked Xun You to accompany him to plant flowers.The flowers are planted in a piece of sandy loam soil under the southern slope. Professor Feng passed by accidentally before, so he remembered it in his heart.

Xun You sat behind him hugging his knees and asked him from a distance, "What kind of flower is this?"

"Chrysanthemum. Professor Feng said that it might survive if planted in this sandy loam soil." After burying it, Xun Yu sat beside Xun You, with their heads on each other, waiting for the sun to set.

Before that, Xun You really believed that some of Xun Yu's actions were beyond his expectations. In the eyes of the labor camp cadres, these insignificant actions were the aftermath of the little bourgeoisie.For example, in the crowd of vole catchers, the back of him planting flowers is particularly abrupt. On nights when everyone hates the sound of rain and can't sleep, he will play the harmonica to the teammates of the eighth team in the rhythm of the sound of rain. The mildew spots on the ground are like water weeds, and a bowl of wild vegetable paste that can't be scooped up with bare feet is like Xiuyanbi.

Many people on the farm thought it was very strange and interesting, but it was only then that Xun You knew that he was resisting, a silent resistance.

Resist hunger, resist panic, resist hopelessness.

The night was sunny and windy, and there was nothing wrong with it, but under the blue sky, an abrupt and thin lone bird passed by.They raised their heads following the chirping sound, and looked at the pair of gray-white wings that came out of nowhere.

Migratory birds fly to the south in winter and come back in spring, even with fixed trajectories.Even so, there will be a lone bird that has lost its flock. It hovers in the sky at a loss, going back and forth sadly, and the night is endlessly sad.

Xun Yu stared at the bird for a very, very long time, but refused to say a word.Bottomless melancholy floated in his eyes, Xun You looked flustered and woke him up: "What are you thinking about?"

"I'm thinking..." Xun Yu looked at him with a smile, "Aren't we very similar to it?"

When people reach a place where there is no way to retreat, they always have some strange emotions. Xun You couldn't answer this sentence, so he could only watch the wailing under the clear sky with him.

June of that year was the lean season, and there was hardly anything decent to import from the farm.Once, the cafeteria was closed for two consecutive days, and on the way back to the dormitory, Xun Yu joked that the allusions in the books when he was a child always asked grandly, how a gentleman can survive in the world, with benevolence and righteousness, with concealment, probably Because a gentleman is never hungry.

They are too hungry to speak of dignity.

Every time Professor Feng wrote a letter home, the paper was full of "I can't live anymore, I can't live anymore, please send me some food".But pickpockets thrived. He stole chickens, sheep, raw wheat and rice, and chewed them dry. He even ate poisonous rats from nearby villages.Every time he was arrested, he was beaten black and blue by the labor camp cadres, but his spirit was still better than anyone else.

Another person who is still in good spirits is Xun Yu. He was the thinnest in the eighth team at first, and he is still thin now, but his eyes are hale and hearty.He often walked a long way to water the flowers. At that time, no one went to the south anymore, and there was a long distance in front of him and behind him.

Xun You sat not far away and watched him tend the flower seedlings. He laughed at him: "Everyone is hungry, why aren't you hungry?"

Since that night, Xun Yu's temperament has become very cute. He is clingy, likes to lie in Xun You's arms and laugh, kisses him secretly, and deliberately makes Xun You angry by being unreasonable.

Sometimes Xun You often thinks, how can there be such a lovely person, and how can there be such a hungry day.

"As for me, I am full of love and drinking water." Xun Yu walked to him with a shower and sat down, wrinkled his nose deliberately at Xun You: "What, envy or not?"

Xun You stretched out his hand to pinch the tip of his nose, but when he turned his head, there was a dizzy whiteness in front of him. He closed his eyes and calmed down before he said, "I have the love you have, but I'm still hungry, what's the deal?"

Xun Yu leaned down, raised his face to look at him from below, looked at him, and suddenly kissed Xun You's lips: "Are you still hungry?"

Xun You smiled and said nothing.

Xun Yu kissed him again, on the left and then on the right, until Xun You hugged him and said, "Stop making trouble, it's nice to be seen."

Xun Yu stretched out his arms to wrap his neck around his neck, and the two of them fell down on the grass along with their strength, and kissed in the grass without any rules.Xun You always remembers the smell of that day, the clear fragrance in the high sun and clear clouds, the green smell from the roots of the grass and trees, and the secluded and smoky atmosphere on Xun You that grew stronger from emotion.

The two lay with their necks crossed, basking in the bright sun, and Xun You could even feel the strength gradually draining from his numb fingertips.It is the despondency of being caught in the trap of pain in reality, the blade that strikes the head is nothing more than empty slogans and documents, and resistance does nothing.

He who rebels against nothingness will himself become the phantom of nothingness.

It was originally a quiet afternoon, but there was a strange sound in the grass behind the two of them, soft and delicate, like a small animal.Xun You hurriedly turned his head to look for it, but unfortunately the grass was half his height, so he couldn't see anything.

"Is it a little rabbit? A little squirrel?" Xun Yu put his face on his arm and turned around with a smile.

There was a string in Xun You's heart, and he relaxed unconsciously after hearing what he said.In these matters, Xun You is the most cautious. Xun Yu laughed at him as always like a squirrel holding a pine cone, for fear that someone would steal his food.

"I'm really afraid that someone will look at it. Unlike you, I don't seem to be afraid of anything." Xun You was still terrified, and kept looking back.

These days, he is so fragile that he is almost alone in a difficult place, and he can see his true nature when he looks around.In Xun You's heart, he has always been weak, but now he is at the end of the road, Xun You watched from the sidelines, and he could see that his character was gradually revealed, and he was open and frank, full of the sparse posture of green pines on the cliff.

It doesn't matter if such a person keeps silent, it is as difficult as going to heaven to ask him to hide and hide.They have always been friends in the eyes of others, Xun Yu never showed it deliberately, but never concealed it.Xun You thinks that Xun Yu probably despises his embarrassment as if he was captured by someone on the way to make love.

But Xun Yu didn't tease him anymore, but touched Xun You's temples and smiled slightly: "It's just that I like you, why are you so sneaky, like a thief?"