love too early

Chapter 88

"Little Heron..."

Fu Zhiheng opened his mouth, his voice low and hoarse.His eyes are deep, like the sunset outside the window at this time, gentle and full of sadness that is about to end.Somewhere in my heart suddenly felt astringent. I originally wanted to question him with many questions, but now I can't say them all.

"Do you know?" He hugged me lightly and said, "You're so smart, I know I can't hide it from you. Don't worry baby, I'm not sick. It's fine. Don't say 100 years, just 1000 years For 1 years, I will always love you and stay by your side forever."

I was hugged by him, feeling the familiar body temperature, and many details that I hadn't noticed before came to my mind.

He proposed to go on vacation with me several times, obviously not because he was afraid of tiredness and trouble, but he refused to take over the family business.

He got rid of many bad living habits, accompanied me to bed early and woke up early, tried his best to take care of me, and stayed by my side.

He tacitly allowed Shen Nanyu to approach me and give me unlimited indulgence. As long as I am happy, he can give in anything.

He was in a hurry to marry me, and asked me to sign an unreasonable prenuptial agreement, leaving no retreat for himself.

……

He's done so much, I'm so slow to realize it until now.

"Zhiheng..." I raised my arms and hugged him back, my nose was inexplicably sour.

"What's the matter baby," Fu Zhiheng put his big hand on the back of my head and rubbed it lightly, "I'm fine, am I not?"

"Why didn't you tell me?" I asked.

He smiled, sighed helplessly, and said, "Men always care about face. I hope I will be invincible with you forever. If you have a bad heart or something, it sounds too weak... And look, my dad I’m in my 60s, and I’m still fine, I’m sure I’ll be fine.”

"What if," I asked, "do you have to wait until something really happens before you tell me the truth?"

"What really happened..." Fu Zhiheng thought for a while, then pretended to be relaxed and said, "It probably doesn't matter if you tell the truth or not. At that time, you will be a wealthy widow with a large inheritance Handsome guy, no matter how many people envy you, you won’t be able to envy him.”

"Fu Zhiheng," I was angry at his nonsense, pushed him away and said, "I don't care about your inheritance."

"I know, I know, our little prince doesn't need my three melons and two dates." Fu Zhiheng hugged me back and coaxed me with a good temper, "Then what do you want me to do... If I'm not here, you will forget me , with someone else. Then I..."

As he spoke, his voice gradually lowered, and finally turned into a sad murmur, "What else can I do to stay by your side."

I have never felt that Fu Zhiheng was so fragile. He hugged me like he was holding the most important and most indelible treasure in his life.

"More than anyone else, I want to live a hundred years longer, and more than anyone else, I want to be with you forever."

"At that time, my dad was hospitalized and lying in the intensive care unit. Looking at him, I thought, what would Xiaolu do if I was lying here today? He would look brave, strong, and handle everything in an orderly manner, but When I go home at night, the house is dark, empty and quiet, and there is not even a kitten or dog to accompany him. Will he be sad, will he hide alone and cry quietly, like grandpa at that time It's like dying."

"I think about this, baby, my heart is going to break. I'm not afraid of death at all, but I'm afraid of you being alone, and you won't make demands on others, and you won't show weakness. I don't know who else can take care of you except me." Hello."

"You know, I used to hate going to the doctor the most, but now I do whatever the doctor asks me to do. I'm really scared..."

His voice was choked with sobs, and he held me tightly in his arms.I can't see his expression, but I'm sure his eyes must be red now, because there is some warm liquid slowly sliding down his jaw into the back of my neck.

Fu Zhiheng cried.

He cried silently, only a few tears rolled down.I suddenly realized that after being together for so many years, he has never asked for anything from me. Even now, when I make him sad again and again, all he considers is me.

"Zhiheng..." I still couldn't comfort him, I hugged him clumsily and said, "The doctor said it all, as long as you cooperate with the treatment and take a good rest, it's fine."

"Sometimes I think that maybe everything is arranged by God." Fu Zhiheng's voice was low and his speech was very slow. Remind me to love you. I have already thought about it baby, although Shen Nanyu is young and not very good at taking care of others, but at least he really likes you. Even if I am not here in the future, you will never be alone when you are with him. "

Fu Zhiheng's exhortation like last words made me feel flustered, I instinctively avoided this topic, grabbed the clothes on his back and said: "Okay, don't say any more."

He smiled, stroked my hair soothingly and said, "Then you promise me one thing, okay?"

"what?"

"Don't marry another person besides me." He hugged me and murmured in a low voice, "If you can't love me, at least leave me something else, okay baby?"

I never thought about marrying a second person.

I feel sad, and maybe regretful.It's a pity that Fu Zhiheng and I are the people who know each other the most in the world, but we haven't understood each other or ourselves for so many years.

And what makes me sad is that I should love him, and I wish I loved him, but among all the complicated feelings I have for him, it's hard to single out which strand is called love.

So I can't say I love him.

And my "helplessness" may become the pain and regret of his life, making it hard for him to let go until the end of his life.

I hugged Fu Zhiheng tightly and said "OK".

It seemed that a stone had finally fallen from his heart, and his tone became lighter, "I used to look down on Shen Nanyu for pretending to be pitiful, but now I realize that I am stupid. At least some sympathy is better than nothing."

"I don't feel sorry for you," I said, "and I don't feel sorry for him."

"I know." He kissed my forehead and said, "Everything is fine, as long as you know that I love you."

I was comforted by Fu Zhiheng's kiss, and my mood gradually calmed down, "I know."

The sun set outside the window, and the room became dark.

It seems that I have never hugged Fu Zhiheng quietly for so long.Marriage suddenly had substance in my heart at this moment. It was not a romance full of flowers, nor was it impulsive, nor was it a confession.

It is honesty, mutual support, and mutual dependence.

From the moment I put on the ring, there was a constant bond between me and Fu Zhiheng, and although I was told that I was still free, my name would always be written with another person's name.

When people talk about Fu Zhiheng, they will say that he is Shi Lu's lover.