First-Class Lawyer

Chapter 124 Past Events

This is not the first time Yan Suizhi took the initiative to get close.

Before, he obviously took the initiative to do more intimate actions, and every time he scratched people's itch, but there was never a time like this——

He didn't say anything, but it was inexplicably sad.

Gu Yan was stunned for a moment, and said in a low voice, "I didn't want you to see those."

"It's nothing." Yan Suizhi's voice was muffled against his shoulder, but there was still a hint of a slight smile: "It's okay, it's just a case, it's not a big deal. I just want to see you, and I suddenly want to Playing a hooligan."

Gu Yan tightened his arms.His embrace was not at all the same as his usual personality, the warm body temperature engulfed him for no reason, and the breath invaded his nostrils little by little.

Yan Suizhi's fingers, which had been rinsed in water for a long time, felt warm again, from the fingertips to the palms and then along the blood vessels filled to the heart, as if the tide had filled the chest cavity.

The last time I felt this way was in that attic, Gu Yan said to him in a low voice that after the bombing, he always dreamed that he was still alive.

Last time, it was Gu Yan leaning against the door, looking up at him on the stairs, and saying goodnight in a deep voice.

Further forward, in the kitchen on the first floor of the villa, Gu Yan looked down at him, tilted his head and kissed the corner of his mouth.

Then there was a long gap, how many years it lasted, he could hardly remember...

This feeling of fullness and soreness in the chest always makes people have an urge to say something.

Yan Sui's chin rested on Gu Yan's shoulder, his eyes were hidden in the shadow of his eyelashes, and fell on a certain point in the void.After being quiet for a while, he suddenly said in a low voice: "Gu Yan..."

"Ok?"

"Why did you choose me as the direct teacher?"

"Because I heard your lecture before." Gu Yan paused, and then said: "And... I met you on Helan Star a long time ago."

"How early?" Yan Suizhi's tone was slightly surprised.

"When I was eight or nine years old, I was in an orphanage." Gu Yan said.

At that time, every weekend, his grandfather who was a judge would take him to the orphanage.Most of the children there suffered similarly to his parents, both soldiers, who died in a battle.The difference is that he has a grandfather, they don't.

He didn't know what was the original intention of his grandfather to take him to the orphanage regularly, maybe he hoped that he would never forget the suffering, maybe he hoped that he would be infected and be a kind person.Grandfather was not a man of words and heart-to-heart talk, and never told him.

However, the character he formed later is indeed inseparable from this experience.

The time he met Yan Suizhi was a winter afternoon, the sun was surprisingly good that day, casting a large amount of bright light on the lawn of the orphanage.This is more comfortable than any artificial temperature control, so many children play on the lawn, swings and playground equipment, basking in the sun.

The grandfather went to the person in charge with the donated materials and left him on the lawn.

"Why didn't you go with me?" Yan Suizhi asked.

Gu Yan said softly: "Who knows, maybe when he comes back, he can see me playing with other people and rolling into a ball."

Yan Suizhi laughed, still a little lazy, "Then did you do what he wanted?"

"No, I found a corner bench and sat and waited for him."

The bench faces the bustling lawn, and when you turn your head, you can see the office building where the dean lives. It won't be too boring, and you can see the grandfather who came out in time. This is the best thing Gu Yan could find when he was a child. good location.

After staying on the bench for a while, he saw a figure coming out of the office building.

He turned his head to look over, only to find that it was not his grandfather, but a young man.

Very young, maybe just turned twenty.

The other party was well-dressed, and looked slender and tall. When he came down the steps, the hem of his coat was slightly lifted by the breeze. He was young, but he looked elegant.

After the man came out of the building, he didn't leave immediately, but stood by the lawn for a while, watching the children playing.

The sun fell on his face, making his skin very white, and his eyes seemed to be covered with a layer of clear glass, reflecting the light.

He was gentle, but not very happy.

This was the conclusion Gu Yan came to when he looked at him at that time.

After a while, the young man noticed Gu Yan who was sitting alone.He walked over unhurriedly, bent slightly and asked him, "Why are you staying alone and getting into trouble with others?"

He thought that Gu Yan was also a member of the orphanage, but for some reason he was not able to participate in the banter of the crowd.

"I'll wait for someone." Gu Yan replied at that time.

"Wait for who?"

"Grandfather."

The young man nodded, only then did he realize that he had made a mistake.

While talking, the aunt who took care of the children on the lawn noticed the young man and came over to say hello to him.

"Then just wait, I'm leaving." The young man waved his hand lazily at Gu Yan, and walked away to talk to his aunt.

When talking to others, young people will smile and appear more gentle.

"I heard a few words sporadically, and I know that you are going to donate money, and it's not the first time." Gu Yan paused for a moment, and then said, "But I only met you once."

Yan Suizhi didn't speak for a while after listening, and then said softly "ah" after a while, and said: "I have a little impression. But it's normal that I haven't met me again. I seldom go on weekends, because I always meet a lot of people on weekends." People. That time, it was only because of a temporary change in the diving club's arrangement that I went to Helan Star on the weekend."

Hearing about the diving club, Gu Yan remembered what he had said, "Dive often at that time?"

Yan Suizhi let out a "hmm".For some reason, when this topic was mentioned, he became quieter again.Gu Yan could keenly sense that his mood had dropped again, and after a while, he whispered as if recalling: "It wasn't that time, I started diving very early, around 15 years old, I was very addicted at one time, felt It's an amazing sport."

"15 years old?" Gu Yan asked.

Intuition told him that Yan Suizhi was trying little by little to give him what was in his heart.

"Well. At that time, my parents had just passed away..." Yan Suizhi's voice was very light, as if he was talking about something ordinary, or too many years had passed, and he had long since lost such deep feelings, "I and Did you say that? My mother has the diseases that people of the Helan star generation often have, and the genetic problems have also been passed on to me. But I am not as serious as her. She was in a bad state that year... You may know, That’s about the end of her life expectancy after suffering from that disease. The hospital issued many notices asking my father to choose between gene surgery and being with her. The result was obvious, and my father did the gene source.”

At that time, genetic surgery, especially this kind of surgery in the direction of curing diseases, required a healthy gene source.In order to avoid more accidents, most people will choose the people close to them.

"In fact, I was the one who ended up on the operating table." Yan Suizhi said, "That kind of surgery is very risky, including the person who provided the gene source."

He blinked his eyes looking out of the window, and said: "I got lucky, they didn't."

People are always unwilling to believe things that they don't want to accept, and they always wonder if there is something behind it. Although the 15-year-old Yan Suizhi is well protected, he still has some conspiracy theories.

"My parents didn't close their eyes on the operating table...they dragged on for a few days." Yan Suizhi said, "At that time, I suspected that there was something wrong with the operation, that the doctor had ill intentions, that the nurse was careless, and that everyone involved in that scene People who underwent surgery. But my parents rejected that idea very much. In the last few days, they kept emphasizing that the risks of surgery were inevitable, and they didn’t want me to dig into the horns.”

That constituted almost all the last words of his parents, hoping that he would not spend his life on this matter, not stop, not be dragged into the mud, not be filled with doubts.I hope he can still treat others fairly, accept others with kindness, and live a long, ordinary but happy life with occasional surprises.

This was the same as the birthday greeting, and it almost became Yan Sui's hindrance for more than ten years.

"I have to listen to the last words, after all, they were the last ones they left for me." Yan Suizhi said, "So I found a lot of things for myself to do that year, so as not to be idle, because once I was free, I would There will be a lot of ideas coming up, some not-so-good, dark ideas that go against what they want."

Thinking about it now, he can't even remember what he was busy with that year, because no matter what he did, his heart felt like an empty wilderness with no response, his heart beat without touching the top, and fell without sound.

Sometimes he would stop for no reason while walking, staring at a certain place on the side of the road in a daze, not knowing where he was going, nor where he would return when he turned his head.

He has a lot of money, a lot of time to squander, but no home.

"At that time, I felt that the only thing that could make my heart beat twice was diving." Yan Suizhi said, "When you inhale oxygen under deep pressure, you will feel like your chest cavity is filled..."

That feeling of fullness that is almost sore and limp always gives people an illusion—it seems quite satisfied, and it seems that it is not so empty.

At that time, he was always wearing a diving suit, sitting on the edge of the second floor of the diving boat, his hair was wet and dripping, he propped up his hands, squinted his eyes and looked at the endless sea, and there were jumping and dazzling Sunlight.

There was a coach nagging next to him, and he regarded it as a meaningless background sound, listening to it while being lost in thought.

After a short rest, plunge into the more deserted sea.

Waiting for the oxygen to fill the heart one by one.

For Yan Suizhi, a teenager, this taste is probably more attractive than any drug in the world, and it is too addictive.

It wasn't until he encountered the accident of Young Master Manson and experienced the feeling of lack of oxygen underwater that he suddenly felt... This matter is really boring.

"In this way, I'm pretty good. I didn't go astray when I was a teenager, and I tried my best to change the course. I tried a lot of things. If they were still there, they would probably drag me to praise me." Yan Suizhi thought for a while, then smiled, "My mother always speaks exaggeratedly, and my father is short-tempered, he would probably just nod beside him and say 'your mother is right'..."

He said, thinking about it for a while, and said: "It's a pity, I can't hear it."

No matter what he did, no matter the big or small things, even if it was just an anecdote he met on the side of the road, no one could tell him.

After a long time, I gradually got used to not mentioning it to others.

After decades of emptiness, he finally met Gu Yan.