[Shenya] Aphasia

Chapter 16

"Japan, okay?"

On the flight from London to Tokyo, Allen asked suddenly.

Kanda was surprised that he even spoke.He was depressed for several days, and he didn't say a word for such a long time, so long that Kanda almost forgot the time, thinking that he was really dumb, although it wasn't that long in fact.

Allen is fighting in a certain sense, which can be seen from his absent-minded eyebrows and voice that seems to be separated by a layer of tulle.He racked his brains trying to get Kanda to give up on himself, but he obviously overestimated the opponent's IQ and underestimated his EQ. Kanda didn't think about it at all, not at all.

"Do you want me to waste all my previous efforts?" The man always said coldly without looking back.During these days when he deliberately kept silent, Kanda refused to have meaningless communication with him, and also put an end to all the ideas in his stomach that escaped him.But who is to blame?Allen Walker was born with emotions written on his face, and it is not just anyone who has the talent to calculate people's hearts.

However, Kanda is better at fighting cold wars than him, so it is naturally him who can't survive the embarrassment of silence and speaks.

"How is Japan?"

"It's no different from England." Kanda glanced at him, "Narrow island country, crowded land, and... Mitarai dango."

Allen hesitated to speak, he nodded, and pointed to the picture in the travel magazine: "It's beautiful, like that painting."

The photo shows a cherry blossom tree in the blooming season, with pale pink flowers all over the branches. It is the same as the painting given by Alma in Allen’s family. It is the color of tender love and the color of beautiful dreams. Especially touching.

Seeing him flipping through the pictures in the magazine with a look of indulgence, Kanda didn't say any more.

The 12 hours on the plane were so difficult that Allen fell asleep with his book spread out before he knew it.When Kanda took away the magazine on his lap, there was a traffic map of Tokyo printed on that page, Allen didn't sleep well, he frowned, and his eyelashes fluttered slightly.

Kanda closed his eyes and rested his mind, a slight rustling sound came from beside him for a long time.

He is calm.Ten seconds later, a very light kiss landed on his lips, stayed there for a while, and then left quietly.Like a feather, like the wind blowing.

Kanda still had his eyes closed, but couldn't help clenching his fists.

It was already the afternoon of the second day when we walked out of Narita Airport, the sun was slanting to the west, spreading a rose-colored halo over Tokyo.At that time, the pick-up car was already waiting in the parking lot, and Kanda's mother was sitting in the driver's seat. Seeing the two approaching, she recognized her son first, so she hurried out of the car to meet her.

"Xiaoyou, this is...?"

"This is Bean...Alan Walker, I mentioned his name on the phone before I came back, it's mine..."

"Friend." Allen interrupted Kanda's introduction, and politely extended his hand to the middle-aged woman in front of him: "Auntie, I'm sorry to bother you today."

Kanda's mother suddenly realized that she immediately shook hands with him and spoke fluent English: "We are the ones who disturb you when we, Xiaoyou, live in your house. He is quite stupid, and he must have caused a lot of trouble for your family."

Allen smiled, with sparkling water in his eyes: "No, I am very grateful that he came to my house."

He didn't use too many honorifics, but Kanda knew that he must have repeated these few words to himself hundreds of times on the plane.Fortunately, Kanda's mother took the two of them home for lunch and focused on driving, so she didn't ask too many questions.

Alian stared out the window intently, while Kanda listened intently to the car radio. The female anchor, who sounded a bit silly to him, finally changed the topic to the karaoke station after introducing several restaurants along the way that he had been familiar with since he was a child.

"what!"

There was an exclamation from beside him, Kanda heard the sound and looked over, and found that there were a few cherry blossom trees not far from the window of Allen. He saw that the flowers were blooming like clouds covered with a faint blush, and then he suddenly realized that it was early spring. It is the season of cherry blossoms.

"It's great to meet you, really, really great..."

There was the voice of RSP on the radio, and Kanda pressed the back of the hand of the person next to him, and the person looked over inexplicably.

"I will be a star, guarding you forever..."

"Alian-kun," Kanda's mother suddenly called out, "You live in our house right? Xiaoyou, you call first to ask Dad to prepare a new quilt."

"Prepare some quilts, can't we just use the spare room?" Kanda was absent-minded.

Kanda's mother changed lanes intently, turned her head at the intersection, and then said, "Do you want to use two rooms?"

The hand on the palm moved slightly, Kanda turned his head, and Aren looked at each other in blank dismay.

"But, that room can no longer be used...I haven't been sleeping well recently, and I can't stand my father's snoring, so my father moved in..."

"It's okay! Me, I live outside..."

Allen said loudly, Kanda glanced over and saw that his ears were red.

"He lives with me."

Allen was about to refute something, but Kanda's mother nodded slowly, as if this was her original intention.

"If Alianjun is not used to it, let Xiaoyou sleep on the sofa."

The Kanda House is a "one-household building" located in Chiyoda District. The exterior walls of the lightweight wooden building are painted in a fried brown color, revealing a strong Japanese flavor.However, the interior of the room is all modern furniture, and there are no sliding paper doors or tatami mats. Kanda’s mother said that she wanted a Japanese house so much back then, but her father and son jointly opposed it, so the house became this nondescript.She planted ivy and green bells in the garden, hanging down like a green waterfall, and the bones of the green bells were splashes of water. Allen looked up and was amazed.

Kanda's father insisted on taking the two out to eat sushi on the grounds of taking the wind and washing away the dust. The two who had just settled down in Kanda's room on the second floor had to put down their luggage and leave again.They settled in a three-star Michelin sushi restaurant in Ginza. Kanda's parents are easy-going people, treating customers with a pleasant face, and constantly complaining about Kanda's troubles and poor care.Allen looked at Kanda who was about to break his chopsticks with his veins showing, and laughed secretly. When he was distracted, he saw that Kanda's father had already opened a bottle of sake and mixed it with four wine glasses.

"This glass is to thank Allen Jun for taking care of our Xiaoyou." Kanda's father raised the glass first, and the two juniors were startled.Allen was the first to react, toasting in return.

Kanda touched the cup in his hand to Allen's lightly, and stared into his eyes. Allen couldn't dodge, was forced to look at him, blinked his eyes and turned his head, and drank the glass of wine.

"Father is a good drinker," Kanda looked at his bottomless glass in a calm voice, "You don't have to accompany him to drink it all in one gulp."

Allen lowered his head and pursed his lips to savor the residual wine.He drank Japanese sake for the first time, and felt a simple and full taste like this country, which made his throat tickle.If time goes back, he will not believe that one day he will be like this, standing on the easternmost land of Eurasia, sitting in an oriental family, tasting tuna that is completely different from his hometown with sake, surrounded by his Japanese lovers.

Full of fresh longing and fear of the unknown.

"I heard that Allen-kun has a good appetite, so I ordered the largest portion of the Tokyo ship." Kanda's mother smiled and pushed the sushi plate in front of Allen, "Please don't be polite."

Kanda's father also hurriedly said: "Does Yalian like to eat sweets? We can order a piece of Sakura Daifuku here."

Seeing his forced smile, Kanda turned to his parents across the table: "You...don't talk too much to him."

"why?"

"I'll explain, but not right now." He lowered his eyes and scrambled his soba noodles.

How should I explain to them that this guy may understand "sushi" but definitely not "Tokyo boat" and "Daifuku", and may even be confused by a series of polite words?

"I have four days off, and I will go to work tomorrow morning," he changed the subject, "If I have time, I want to take this guy out for a walk."

"The cherry blossoms in Ueno Park are in full bloom. It's very beautiful," Kanda's mother said. "My father and I went there just the day before yesterday, and there was also a Chinese New Year opera concert!"

After finishing speaking, she took out her mobile phone from her bag, opened the photo album and handed it over.Kanda struggled to find his mother smiling at the camera among the dense crowd of heads in the photo, and frowned in disgust: "If you call this cherry blossom viewing..."

"If you avoid weekends, there will be fewer people on weekdays," Kanda's father picked up a fruit roll and stuffed it into his mouth. "Of course Shinjuku Gyoen is also good, although the scenery is worse than Ueno Park."

Kanda turned to the person beside him who was struggling to fight the crab roe: "Would you like to see the cherry blossoms?"

Allen nodded: "Okay."

It was already dark after dinner, but the last few days have been sunny and the night sky is dotted with stars.Kanda's parents decided to go home first, leaving the two young people to hang out.So Allen proposed to go to a place where he could enjoy the night view at a glance. After thinking about it, Kanda took him up to the Sky Tree.

The tallest tower in the world is like a blue-white giant sword standing in the building complex, pointing directly at the dark sky, half of the lights of the city can be seen from the two viewing platforms, breathing quietly in the night sky with.After Arlian arrived at the Tianwang corridor, he began to exclaim, lying on the glass and didn't want to leave.After tugging a few times, Kanda finally gave up, retreated from the crowd and found a stool to sit down and rest.

"Excellent!" When Allen squeezed out from the crowd, there were sparkling things in his eyes, as if he had already put the bright city into his eyes, "Tokyo is so beautiful!"

Kanda folded his arms and chuckled: "The condition is not bad, keep going, idiot."

100 meters further up, the proportion of the night sky in the field of view has increased a bit, and the whole city has become a Milky Way below the feet, with a layer of fluffy white light fog above the Milky Way, making those dimly lit places look like another world, The real stars embedded in the night seem to be within reach.

Allen suddenly became quiet, staring straight ahead in silence, not knowing what he thought of.

Kanda stepped forward and patted him on the shoulder.

"You's parents, it's so nice..." Standing in the dappled light, Allen didn't turn his head, as if muttering to himself, Kanda stared at his neck under the short hair that was reflected in warm yellow by the light, waiting for the next .

"You are happy here, but you are in Manchester, so far away from home... how nice it is here..."

"What do you mean?" Kanda became wary.

Allen hesitated for a moment.

"He, on the plane, like this, did you also see..." He closed his mouth knowingly in the middle of speaking, but Kanda glanced at the night scene behind him, and instantly understood what he meant.

"Bean sprouts, if there is no glass here, are you planning to just jump off and go to the underworld to find that bastard father who abandoned you?"

Allen sensed the anger hidden in Kanda's sarcasm, and quickly waved his hands: "That's me, I thought of it by accident."

"Remember," Kanda raised his arm, locked him in the narrow space between himself and the glass, stared at those dodging eyes, "you are mine now, those two just now are Your parents. Sooner or later...I mean I'm going to try to make that day...let them fill in the gaps in your relationship, you know?"

Ya Lian bit his lip and didn't dare to breathe.Kanda lowered his head in frustration.

"You idiot, you can't communicate at all..."

"excellent!"

Accompanied by Allen's yelling, the crowd burst into an uproar of surprise.

Kanda turned his head, just in time to see a huge cluster of fireworks rising and exploding somewhere in the city, and the golden fragments fell like raindrops and extinguished in mid-air.Then came more flowers, crackling and blooming under the night, full of brilliance.

"You haven't learned this word before, it's called fireworks."

People on the viewing platform sighed in surprise. Although watching the fireworks in the distance from the sky tree, it is a bit short.But the blossoming flowers jumped out of the mist that filled Tokyo, just like gorgeous soap bubbles rising from the sparkling water, and the loud bursting noise was covered by the heavy sound of the observation deck. Isolated by the tempered glass wall, the fireworks scrambled up, and the soft and cheerful appearance was even more infectious.

The young man's quiet gray eyes reflected the shimmer of fireworks.

That is probably the most fleeting beauty in the world.

"Fireworks..." He grabbed Kanda's arm, probed and pecked his lips lightly, "something that makes people happy happened, so there are fireworks..."

Kanda concentrated for a while, wrapped his arms around Allen's waist, brought him into his arms, and kissed him deeper.

"What's the matter with you? Huh?" He rubbed the other's lips lightly with rubbing, and stuck his tongue into his teeth to resist the entanglement. The softness was unstoppable.Bean Sprouts has never been good at hiding. The man who is always depressed after his illness has already kissed him twice after leaving England. The typical Allen Walker is cautious, as if he is afraid of being hated, but that persistent look is always It was pulling a certain nerve in his brain, pulling it lightly would cause palpitations, and if it was forced hard, it would hurt.

"Have you made any decisions?"

Allen's body trembled for a moment.

They didn't leave until the last spark of the fireworks faded into the night.After watching the fireworks, Allen seemed to be in a good mood. He sat in the convenience store and ate another curry rice and a rice ball.The female clerk of the convenience store came over to chat with them, but found that the two of them were not very keen on communicating, one was hesitating, and the other was cold and unable to answer five words.The girl could only find an excuse to return to the counter sadly.

When they were about to leave, a boy came into the store to give the girl a midnight snack, packed in a transparent lunch box, and the box was covered with water mist.Kanda recognized that it was the girl's boyfriend, and the two were watching closely, laughing.

Every corner of the world obviously has happy things happening at any time, and what needs to be celebrated with fireworks must be extremely beautiful and joyful.Being able to witness an extremely beautiful and joyful experience, witnessing their happiness in a strange place... Thinking about it, Allen couldn't help but curl his lips.

"Happiness? Are you asking Xiaoyou?"

Kanda's mother was taken aback, she didn't expect this friend of her son's to ask him such a question.At this time, they were standing on the high place of Kiyosu Bridge, where the view was very good, and they could even see the huge electronic advertising screen in Akihabara not far away.The river of Kandagawa flows slowly under your feet. It is not the same as the undulating Mersey River here. It is more like a fine silk. The river water is crystal clear in the sun, the weeping willows on the embankment are graceful, and the white birds are playing.

Kanda's mother's exquisite eye makeup has a few crow's feet that cannot be concealed, and there are occasional silver threads that slip through the dyed black hair, but from the perspective of a middle-aged woman, she is still beautiful and dignified.Kanda has the same oriental slender eyes and obsidian-like pupils as hers, but unfortunately he doesn't like to smile. When the mother laughed, Allen stared at her eyes, desperately imagining Kanda smiling, and then Can't help laughing.

"I think he is happy—so, can Mr. Allen understand?"

Allen nodded.

Kanda's mother said a lot, and she couldn't help covering her mouth and laughing several times.She found that the boy in front of her was a child who was very eager to communicate.She said that Xiaoyou is very talented in reading, and the family tried their best to provide the best environment for him to complete his studies and further his studies. However, he has been withdrawn since he was a child, swearing and even fighting with others.She said that they didn't show him too many paths because they didn't dare to put pressure on him. Fortunately, his independent character didn't cause too much trouble for others.She also said that Xiaoyou is often envied by his peers and sought after by girls because of his excellence, but he has no close friends, and you are the first friend to go home with him.My father and I agreed that Yalian Jun must be a very kind child, who could tolerate his bad temper and bad personality, and gave him great help. My father and I are very grateful to you.In the end she sighed, Xiaoyou might not be perfect, but she might be considered happy.

"I hope that Xiaoyou can successfully complete her studies, enter the place she likes in the society, have a happy marriage and a happy family, and live her life easily without any burden," Kanda's mother said with a smile, " This is the only wish of my father and me."

Allen lowered his eyes, not knowing how much he understood.

"I'm really sorry for being so long-winded, Alian-kun." Realizing the junior's silence, Kanda's mother immediately turned around, folded her hands and apologized.

"Don't worry about it," Allen suddenly smiled, "Kanda, he's fine, I hope so too."

Before the words finished, Kanda's mother's phone rang.

"Let's go find him, Alian-jun, Xiaoyou should have finished the formalities."

Allen nodded, but deliberately slowed down a few steps. Seeing the back of the lady answering the phone hurried towards the direction of his son, he raised his hand and wiped the corners of his eyes, which were already wet.

I guess I was being selfish no matter how hard I tried to play a good character.Because at that moment, how I wish I could take you away, and use your love and sense of responsibility to drag you down for the rest of my life.But I took not only you, I also took away the only son of a happy oriental couple, I took away their expectations of you, I took away your peaceful life and simple and happy future - I took three personal happiness.

My sin is so great, my guilt and selfishness are at war every day.If it continues I'm going to hell, no one can save me, and I can't save myself.

I let go, you let go too.

"Give it up, Yuu."

Allen closed his eyes and said this to the person in front of him.

This man is so good, the love of his life.

Always will be.

-TBC.