Dawn Redemption

Chapter 56 IV.Courtyard of the Seifert Mansion

Noah stood with his hands behind his back in the courtyard that had just been cleaned from the snow.Nothing to do, nothing to look at, just drooping eyes.

In the midsummer of last year, he walked with him on this meadow. At that time, the fragrance of flowers was like a veil on the face, and the whole sky was condensed into a pair of clear blue eyes, but now there is only frost and snow that is about to melt.

After spring, perhaps the scenery will remain the same.

Why do I start to miss that time inexplicably?Noah thought to himself that the cold outside made him calmer, but it was still difficult to sort out the cause and effect.Do you really have that kind of feeling for him?He wasn't sure, he couldn't even understand why there was such a bond between the two men.

But those feelings are real.

I want to hold him in my arms, I want to smell the smell behind his neck covered by the ends of his hair.His body temperature, his breath, and his supple body are all real.If it was just drunk and not sober that night, then now...why doesn't she feel a little bit repulsive to that man's body, instead she wants to have it even more.

I'm not gay.Noah said to himself silently.

He has many comrades-in-arms or brothers, and they are all sincere friendships, and he doesn't even think about that.After a social dance that year, the first time I met Gelita, although I was a little dull, I was really fascinated by her elegant conversation.

He and she are not the same kind of people at all.He always behaved indifferently, with a lean look, and sometimes even showed a mean-spirited and cruel side.He also pays attention to his appearance, uses pomade to smooth his smooth blond hair, and polishes his leather shoes. He is very handsome, and he is not at all similar to a woman.

But when he thinks of him, Noah just finds it cute.

Is it really necessary to find a way to prove it as Greta said?

Indeed, he himself wondered very much what lay between them.Regardless of whether it was what he thought or not, the days surrounded by doubts should also be over.

Noah had no idea how to confirm it. In fact, he also admitted that he was sometimes an idiot in terms of feelings, but he had already taken steps and subconsciously walked towards the camp.

"dad?"

Noah froze, then turned around and hugged the little guy who was flying towards him.Ilsa pulled her rabbit doll, tilted her head and asked, "Where are you going, Dad? It's time for dinner."

Noah gently rubbed her curly hair, squatted down and said softly: "I'll go to the camp to have a look, and I'll be back soon. Don't run around, go to the house to accompany mother for a while."

Ilsa's eyes rolled twice: "Hey, is Dad going to find Brother Finn?"

Noah's movement was another pause.

Yes, what is he going to do now?

Want to confirm?How to confirm?

Finn had made it clear that he didn't want to see him again, and every time the two of them met, the air between them would become extremely awkward and freeze.At times like this, it becomes very difficult to even speak.

"No, I'm just going to see." He didn't know if he was lying or not.Ilsa nodded thoughtfully, made a "bye" gesture to Noah and ran away.

Noah straightened up, hesitated for a while, and still took steps in the direction of the concentration camp.

The appearance of Noah made many soldiers think that he was here for a surprise inspection, and they immediately took up their guns and stood upright in the sentry box.

Because of that accident, the defense of the concentration camp is now stricter than before, and patrolling soldiers can be seen everywhere.But at this time Noah didn't want to be seen by others at all.It wasn't because he did anything shameful, at least he didn't think so in his heart, he just felt that, as a commander, his reason for coming here this time was too improper, even a bit ridiculous.

He didn't drive the car straight to the camp hospital, but found a suitable place halfway to stop the car.

Noah hesitated whether to go to the hospital or not—well, even if he did, the walk would at least give him some time to think about what he should say when they met.

He considers himself an upright person.But to say these things, there must be a way to call Finn to a place where no one can hear their conversation.To protect his privacy, embarrassment is enough for only two people, absolutely no one else can discover or see it...

"Long live Hitler! Sir!"

Noah was not frightened, but he was still disturbed by the voice of vitality suddenly appearing behind him.He looked at Jonas who was holding on to the bicycle, and recognized that it was a soldier from Finn's dormitory, and raised his hand to salute him.

"Sir, are you going to the hospital too?" Jonas kicked off the rear wheel bracket of the bicycle and stood upright.

Originally, there was supposed to be a holiday after the New Year. Jonas planned to go back to Berlin to find his boyfriend a long time in advance, but suddenly such a mess happened. To replace the casualties, the workload increased, and the holiday plan was also ruined.But in order to take care of his good brothers, he has no hesitation.

"What about you?" Noah didn't answer directly.Jonas pointed to the bag fixed on the back seat of the car: "I'm going to deliver some food to Lieutenant Finn and Rolf. They are much better! Everyone in the hospital is recovering well, only the fifth team It's a pity that Karl didn't make it through the past two days. Marcus was supposed to come with him, but it happened to be his turn to stand guard. Got his lowbrow magazine to pass around, so I'm coming alone, sir."

Noah politely did not interrupt Jonas' long nonsense, but he was still a little anxious in his heart. "It's okay, let them recuperate at ease, and don't need to rush back to the team." Noah paused, "But you must always be vigilant, this task is heavy and hard work."

"Thank you, sir." Jonas's eyes were full of enthusiasm, "but you...will not be in any inconvenience recently, right? I mean...if Finn is not with you?" Noah didn't see To speak, Jonas continued:

"Actually, I don't know why...Fin's mood is a bit weird recently. When he talks to us, he will pretend to be very happy, but if he is left alone, ghosts can see that he is very depressed, like eating bad food. It’s like a belly.” He stopped, and from his expression, he was carefully considering what he was going to say next.For a long time, he looked at Noah carefully and said:

"Maybe I shouldn't say that. Although Finn has always been cold, all our brothers think he is a very good person, and he is also very hardworking, so...he is not a tool, and his mood needs others to understand Concern. We all feel, sir, that you've always been important to him, and he's talked about you a lot, but not lately. I wonder if... well, lately, you guys have some... …I mean……"

Jonas became a little anxious and even more incoherent, but Noah couldn't hear what he said later.

Yes, yes, I have always been such a selfish person, I never seriously considered for Finn from the beginning to the end, and I didn't realize until today that he has been in that dark corner that has never been illuminated for so long staring at myself.

It turned out that everything was his fault, so completely and selfishly wrong.Everyone else saw it, but he was the only bastard who insisted on going his own way!

"Uh, sir?"

Nas was taken aback because Noah suddenly turned around and walked away quickly, returning in the direction he came from.

"Hello—sir—are you not going to the hospital?"

Jonas yelled, but Noah was already gone.He stood there feeling bored for a while, but in the end he still thought about the fact that the boxed lunch he brought might get cold, so he got on his bicycle and prepared to rush to the hospital.

The moment he stepped on the first round of pedals, he suddenly seemed to realize something, and a weird idea came up, so weird that he was even frightened by his amazing imagination. "No, no, it's impossible." Jonas stretched out his hand and slapped the air twice, as if this would shake the thought away.But the more this happens, the more entrenched the idea becomes.

"By the way, he has a daughter."

Jonas nodded to himself, accelerated the speed of pedaling the bicycle, and lamented the seemingly too stupid guess in his mind by the way.