What to do when dating a gloomy roommate online

Chapter 79 Confession

Are we together? (Together)

The stamina of the cold medicine increased, and Yu Zhong leaned against Qi Yuechen's arms, feeling soft and groggy all over, but his mood was strangely active.Suddenly learning that someone paid attention to me so early and still likes me now, it's like unintentionally prying into a secret that has been hidden for many years, and there is an indescribable touch.

But Qi Yuechen's last words made him a little at a loss.He didn't quite understand why the other party thought so, and what it meant to have given up.

"The photo I saw at your house last time," Qi Yuechen raised his wrist and brushed his cheek with his fingertips, "What were you thinking when you took the photo?"

It's about the photo I took in high school.What did I think at the time? It seemed that the other party was really good-looking, and it was a beautiful moment worth recording.

"I think you're fine." Yu Zhong replied honestly, not quite understanding Qi Yuechen's sudden change of subject.

Qi Yuechen chuckled, "Really? But at that time, I was thinking every day what kind of death method I would choose to end my life quickly. A terrible family, a boring life, and I found out not long after school started. I actually like boys, and the other party may still be straight, it sounds very unlucky, doesn't it?"

"I don't want to live, and I want to go to school to see the boy I like. I think this is just the last time, but every time it becomes the "last time".He clearly planned to leave this world before the first monthly exam, but he insisted on procrastinating from the end of summer to the winter solstice.Soon the new year came. On the New Year’s Eve, I went to the river to drink alone. When I came back to my senses, I found that my mind was full of that boy’s face. It sounds like dying for love, quite tragic, writing a love letter before dying, and putting it in the book of the person you like, and waiting for this person to suddenly find out many years later, and then thinking, who is Qi Yuechen?Maybe I still feel that I have been missed by a dead person, how unlucky... At that time, I vetoed this idea with contempt. Anyway, I felt that I was hopeless, and I was thinking about it every day. "

Qi Yuechen's tone was flat, as if he was telling someone else's story.

Being able to lie down with the person I like and relive the past peacefully is something that my previous self would never have thought of.My previous self seemed naive and boring. After learning about my real life, I was thinking about how to die every day, studying and taking exams numbly.

I thought about messing with my partner and degrading myself, but unfortunately I ran into the bathroom to vomit in disgust before I touched the hands of the opposite sex in an irregular nightclub.I feel that every day is short and long, the short is life, and the long is hard time.

So the clear and clean boy in the corner of the playground became a rare and quiet soil for him to live in.

No matter how depressed the mood is, seeing the other party will bring a kind of quietness like purification.His unstained black eyes, his slender fingers when he knelt down to tie his shoelaces, and the white neck exposed when he bent over to listen to the teacher's lecture in the office, are like fresh snow that just fell in early winter, silently covering Qi Yuechen's body. Apex.

He came out to his family recklessly, and paid the price for it. He was deprived of a place to study abroad, which was the self-righteous punishment of that inhuman father.He scorned this punishment, and it was all right not to read.It's just that he also decided to give up at that time, because this is an endless abyss, it's better to fall by himself.

But as fate would have it, they still met.What followed was like a force majeure, and he learned to take a step and feel good.Qi Yuechen's gaze slid down from Yu Zhong's well-behaved hair. What he saw were slender eyelashes, pale pink cheeks, full lips, and a faint mole on his neck. His body smelled sweet.This person is real, right in your arms, within reach.

Seeing Yu Zhong's dazed gaze, he explained: "If I can say it, it means everything is over."

"Really?" Yu Zhong's mind was still a little confused, because of the huge amount of information, and because of taking the medicine, he became dull.The past and reality were intertwined, and for a moment he couldn't tell whether he was in front of an adult who made him feel comfortable and wanted to make more progress, or the slightly gloomy high school student in the narrative who was full of crazy ideas.

It seems that no matter which one, he wants to get close, and he doesn't mind anything.

He still wanted to say something, but he was overwhelmed by drowsiness.Qi Yuechen's arms were so comfortable, like he was stepping on a cloud, he couldn't help but fall down.He thought about going back to his pillow, but it was just a momentary thought, what to do, why is it so comfortable?

I don't know what I said in a daze, maybe "I will always be with you" or "You have me now"... In short, it's like being drunk, I don't know whether it is nonsense or sincere expression, until the end The consciousness was completely withdrawn, and the whole person just hugged him and passed out.

Almost two-thirds of these 24 hours are spent in bed.When Yu Zhong woke up completely, his physical strength returned, and the fatigue caused by the fever and taking the medicine had long since dissipated.A bunch of messages on the phone were bombarding, Yu Zhong chose the important ones to reply first, and then found that Qi Yuechen had handed in all the homework that he was urging, of course, almost all of them were written for him.

The waist was embraced again, Qi Yuechen came over at some time, changed into a suit, tall and charming, Yu Zhong looked down at the slender hand on his waist, then at Qi Yuechen's face, his heartbeat started again Accelerate, face red face.

"Good afternoon." Qi Yuechen only hugged him once and then let go.

Yu Zhong nodded dumbly: "Is it noon again? Today seems to be the weekend, and I have to go to my high school teacher's house in the afternoon."

"Well, I'll take it to you."

Qi Yuechen didn't ask him what's the matter, but Yu Zhi felt the need to explain, cleared his throat and said, "I just received the news. The teacher seems to be sick, and the students who stayed in the local area organized a small group to visit. I yesterday I didn't have time, so I added it today. I really like this teacher, and I hope she's okay."

Qi Yuechen looked at him and nodded, "Let's eat first."

The lunch is Cantonese cuisine, Qi Yuechen calls it an errand, and the name of the restaurant is Yu Zhong. It is an old-fashioned restaurant nearby that has a busy business and does not usually deliver food.Fried yellow croaker fish double-skin milk with soy sauce and soy sauce and boiled soup. Yu Zhong whetted his appetite and was slightly full. Finally, he took a clean shower and set off to visit the teacher.

The district where the teacher’s home is located is not too far from the school, it’s about an hour’s drive to the elevated highway.Qi Yuechen sent him to the door, accompanied him to choose flowers for the teacher, and then said that he still had something to do, and if he couldn't see him when he came out, he would take a taxi back to school.

Holding the bouquet, Yu Zhong obediently agreed.

The teacher is a Chinese teacher, surnamed Zhou, she is still very young in memory, many people in the class in high school liked her very much.Yu Zhi remembered the scene of her standing on the podium with the morning light hitting her face. When she opened the door and saw the teacher whose hair had fallen out due to illness, she didn't recover for a moment.

"What a beautiful flower, thank you Xiao Yu, but unfortunately I can't get out of bed and walk around now." Teacher Zhou smiled at him, directed his family to help put the flowers on the table, and motioned him to sit down.

Only then did Yu Zhong know that what the teacher suffered from was not an ordinary ailment, but advanced breast cancer with severe bone metastases and bone damage all over his body, and he had to be hospitalized for chemotherapy every once in a while.

This made Yu Zhong feel sad.

With advanced cancer, there are not many days left to survive in this world.

In order to change the subject, he cheered up and said a lot about himself.

Teacher Zhou leaned on the bedside and listened to him, with a faint smile on his brows and eyes, as if he had comprehended everything.

"So Xiaoyu has found someone he likes now?" she asked.

Yu Zhong nodded and shook his head again, "I'm not sure yet...because he's also a boy, and I had too many worries before. You should know that teacher, he's the same as me, and his name is Qi Yuechen."

Mr. Zhou didn't seem surprised by this result, nor did he show much rejection.She just raised her eyebrows, with a thoughtful look: "That boy... no wonder."

She smiled and took the initiative to explain: "When he came to the office to find their teacher, he would often help me distribute the homework of your class, and he also took the initiative to stay and help correct the test papers. Thinking about it now, it seems that he paid extra attention to you many times. .

For example, your handwriting can be recognized at a glance on the test paper without your name, etc. You children, who are all beating around the bush, are quite cute when you think about it. "

Yu Zhong lowered his head and wiped his eyes, then raised his head to see another smiling face.

"Hope you feel better soon."

Yu Zhong didn't go to the subway station after leaving the community where Teacher Zhou's home was located, but first sent a message to Qi Yuechen, solemnly saying that we all have to take care of ourselves.

Qi Yuechen called quickly: "How is the teacher, have you come out yet?"

"Well, I'm walking on the long street outside the community now. Our teacher...has terminal cancer, so I don't know how much time I have left."

Qi Yuechen was silent for a few seconds, "Wait a minute, I'll come pick you up."

Yu Zhong wiped away his tears and stood there obediently, with the wind blowing across his cheeks and the withered yellow sycamore leaves at his feet. He thought of what the teacher had just said to him, that we all have to face death bravely.

As time advances, death is an unavoidable ending. Even the eternal sun has a day of destruction. What we have seems to be only the present, and the future is always just a possibility.

All the decisions that I dare not make now are always placed in the future, but what is the future like?

Yu Zhong bowed his head and sent another voice message to Qi Yuechen: Don't look at your phone while driving, I'll wait for you near CoffeeBean.

Y: Well, I see.

Sitting opposite Qi Yuechen was a middle-aged woman with well-maintained skin.She gracefully raised the earl gray tea and took a sip, then asked slowly, "Are you leaving?"

"Go and pick someone up." Qi Yuechen stood up and prepared to leave.

"What about the girl from the Lin family? It's almost the appointed time."

"This kind of blind date was originally decided by you." Qi Yuechen said indifferently, "And you know, I like boys."

The woman clicked her tongue and rubbed her hand on the Marlboro cigarette case, "Is the guy you picked up a boy?"

Qi Yuechen looked at her quietly.

"I don't care about your business," the woman said slowly, "Keep it a secret, don't let your father know."

Qi Yuechen didn't respond, just smiled, "I'm leaving," he paused for a few seconds, and called the other party's title, "Mom."

His adoptive mother waved wearily.

When Qi Yuechen received Yu Zhong, the sky had already started to rain lightly.The timeline has entered late autumn according to the 24 solar terms, but it is only a little bit cold in City C, except for the occasional rain.

Yu Zhong's glasses were covered with a thin layer of water droplets, and after getting into the car, he asked for a face towel to wipe it off.Qi Yuechen stopped aside and waited for him to fasten his seat belt, then handed over a small box of steaming octopus balls, topped with finely chopped seaweed, bonito flakes, and various unnamed condiments.

"I passed by a store that I bought conveniently, and the business is very good." Qi Yuechen started the car, looking straight ahead, "Try it."

Yu Zhong took a bite, and the crispy and tender taste exploded on his taste buds, which hit his liking perfectly.

He had the urge to cry again.

"Delicious."

red light.Qi Yuechen stepped on the brakes very steadily, unlike her sister who easily bumped herself.He turned his face to look at Yan Yuzhong, tapped the steering wheel a few times with his fingers, "Really? Can you feed me one."

Yu Zhong picked the roundest one—actually they all looked similar, but he stubbornly felt that the roundest one was, and carefully handed it over, and then saw Qi Yuechen chew and swallow it very gracefully.

A box of takoyaki is just like this, you and I will finish it one by one.

Nothing is real in the rain curtain, and the ground is full of reflections of neon lights. At first glance, it has a cyberpunk sci-fi feel.But the rain seemed to be only for a moment, because soon a rainbow appeared in the sky, but the sunset was approaching.

"I don't want to go back to school," Yu Zhong said suddenly, lying on the edge of the car window, "I want to go to the beach."

Qi Yuechen calmly turned on the lane change light and drove into the left lane. The vehicle passed the intersection and entered Binhai Road.

The waves after the rain are very calm, the water is blue, the reef is black, and the skyline has a thin layer of gold.Not far away, there are new couples taking wedding photos, which is neither noisy nor peaceful. The rainbow is like a bridge across the sea, looming above their heads, as if it will disappear at any time due to nightfall.Yu Zhong picked a low rock and sat down, took off his shoes and socks, gritted his teeth and soaked his feet in the water, then shivered from the cold.

"Is it fun?" Qi Yuechen sat beside him, hesitated for a moment, and kicked off his shoes.

"It's cold!" He had to speak loudly in such an empty environment, Yu Zhong turned his head and smiled at Qi Yuechen, and then saw that the other party dipped his feet into the water calmly, and didn't react much.

"Aren't you cold?" Yu Zhong was a little surprised.

"Maybe a little," Qi Yuechen said, "This kind of thing is nothing."

Yu Zhong stepped on the water, and the crystal water droplets splashed, reflecting the outline of the rainbow.Qi Yuechen was by his side, and the two of them watched the setting sun in the distance together.

"Fireworks by the sea must be very nice." Yu Zhong muttered to himself.

"Do you want to put it away? I can go nearby to see if I can buy it. This is not a no-combustion zone."

"No... next time." Yu Zhong hurriedly grabbed Qi Yuechen's clothes.

"I just think the scenery is beautiful." He said again.

Just like that, the two of them didn't bring anything, they simply sat on the beach and kicked the water, then shivered from the cold, there was an illusory rainbow in the sky, and there was an illusion of eternity.

All the troubles and sentimentality seem to gradually dissipate in this quiet peace.Yu Zhong was playing with the water at his feet, and gradually had the idea of ​​a prank, and lightly stepped on Qi Yuechen with his foot, seeing that the other party didn't respond, he stepped on it again.

"What are you doing?" Qi Yuechen finally turned around after being provoked a few times, and looked at him with a smile, as if he didn't care at all.

Yu Zhong also became bolder, stepped on Qi Yuechen's instep with one foot without much effort, put his hands on his sides, and blinked innocently: "I didn't do anything."

Qi Yuechen smiled, "Really?"

A cluster of fireworks suddenly rose not far away.Golden red, and then another cluster, blooming next to each other, dotted and lingering for a long time.It turned out that the sky was already dark, just unconsciously.

Yu Zhong glanced over Qi Yuechen's head and sighed, "Oh my God. Is today a holiday?"

"Maybe it's the couple who took the wedding photos." The fireworks were about to fill the sky above their heads, Qi Yuechen looked at the fireworks reflected in Yu Zhong's eyes, and explained softly.

The distance between the two was already very close, and Yu Zhong was still concentrating on watching the fireworks above his head. When he came back to his senses, he found himself kissed by Qi Yuechen.

First the two lips touch lightly, then the tip of the tongue.The moment of being sucked is like a dream, the temptation is so close, the whole person is like a sensual animal, and I want to cry for no reason.The back of the neck was gently squeezed, and Yu Zhong was dizzy, as if submerged in water and floating, catering to him at a loss.

He seemed to hear Qi Yuechen smile, followed by another kiss, the palate was gently licked, Yu Zhong was so intoxicated in this kiss that he couldn't even breathe.I don't know how much time has passed, but when Qi Yuechen slowly backed out, he still hadn't reacted, and stared blankly at the other party, his lips were red and swollen with watery luster, as if reminding them how immersed they were just now.

Qi Yuechen didn't go away, their foreheads touched, his eyes were gloomy, and he wasn't very calm.With such a distance, no matter who they are, they can continue to move forward, but they just look at each other, in this silent air.

The fireworks were extinguished at some point, and the few people on the beach dispersed, and it seemed that there were only the two of them in the world.

"I'm not such a casual person." Yu Zhong whispered.

Qi Yuechen bent his eyes and smiled: "It's such a coincidence, so do I."

Yu Zhong looked at him silently.

"I'm not gay," he continued after a long time, "but I think I care about you and I like to kiss you. Is this considered love?"

Qi Yuechen looked at him without blinking, his eyes were dark, as if he was looking at some very important treasure.

He let go of Yu Zhong, and gradually sat back without saying anything.

During this process, Yu Zhong's heart sank one after another.Could it be that he made a mistake, but didn't Qi Yuechen say that he likes him?

He watched Qi Yuechen jump off the rock, and suddenly hugged himself horizontally—what is this unfolding?

"It's too cold," Qi Yuechen's faint voice floated from above his head, "I almost forgot I was still playing in the water. I'll take you back to the car first."

The water dripped down the heels of his feet, and Yu Zhong felt the coldness of being forgotten.It's just that his heart is still heavy, thinking of Qi Yuechen's ambiguous attitude.

After being sent into the car, he grabbed Qi Yuechen's sleeve, but lost his courage for a moment, and Qi Yuechen suddenly bent down and kissed his cheek, then went around to the driver's seat and got into the car.

"I thought it would take a long time for this day." Qi Yuechen lowered the parking space, took out a towel from the car to help him wipe his feet, and looked carefully, it seemed that it was not a towel, but a very clean T-shirt. The clothes didn't care at all, "I didn't expect it to be so fast."

"I know very clearly that I love you," Qi Yuechen raised his head after speaking, his hand was very warm, and Yu Zhong stepped on his palm, like a baby being held, "So are we together?" ?”

The emotions in his chest instantly swelled, as if they were about to overflow.Yu Zhong's nose was sour, his throat was tight, he looked at Qi Yuechen hazyly, and tried hard to control himself not to cry: "I think so."

It turns out that being together doesn't necessarily have to pick some earth-shattering famous scene.There is no troubled world, no doomsday of rebirth, this is just a very peaceful evening, with the wind blowing by the sea, rainbows, fireworks, and unknown newlyweds.The sky is ever-changing, only this corner of the world is eternal.

Qi Yuechen suddenly had some crazy thoughts.For example, high tide and then a tsunami, the heavy rain washed away the city, and everything disappeared, before the unknown dawn came.But such thoughts only surfaced for a moment.In the end, he just gently put down Yu Zhong's feet, thinking about how tender he was, and nodded calmly: "Well, I think so too."

The author says:

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