Black Powder Monologue Diary

Chapter 59 58 Breakup

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"I don't have much chance to meet up recently. After a while, when I go back to City B, I'll have nothing to do. We'll just stay together." Ji Shanye told Lin Yu.

"Or do you want to go out to play? To travel? Some people in China will recognize us, so forget it. Do you want to go abroad to play? Find a place with a little less people." Ji Shanye planned.

Lin Yu just kept his head down and remained silent, with a dignified expression, Ji Shanye stopped talking.

"What's wrong?" he asked.

Lin Yu raised his head to look at Ji Shanye, his heart was oppressed and hurt badly, he hesitated, but he said it anyway: "Ji Shanye, otherwise, let's forget it."

Ji Shanye's face changed, and the corners of his mouth pulled down.The air was terribly quiet, and Lin Yu lowered his head again, not daring to look Ji Shanye in the eye.

"What do you mean?" he said.

"That's it..." Lin Yu said, "Let's forget it, let's call it a day."

After a few seconds, Ji Shanye asked him, "Do you want to break up?"

Lin Yu was silent.

Ji Shanye clenched his hands tightly, he tried his best to ignore the feeling of depression in his heart, and asked him: "Because I was photographed a while ago... I was injured..." Ji Shanye stumbled a word: "Because I feel troublesome, Will you break up with me?"

"If it's because of that, there's no need." Ji Shanye said, "I assure you that such a thing will never happen again, and I will find a way to solve this problem as soon as possible."

"No." Lin Yu looked at him: "It's not because of that."

"Why is that?" Ji Shanye asked.

Lin Yu had too many things to say, he just felt that there was a huge gap between him and Ji Shanye, and this gap would never disappear.

Hearing the conversation between Ji Shanye and Tina at the door made Lin Yu more certain that he and Ji Shanye had no future.They can't go to the light together, let alone all kinds of things in the future.

Why would he think he could be with Ji Shanye?Is he a psychopath who can't even distinguish between reality and fantasy?Because he has nothing, he wants to own Ji Shanye?

He's just a sick lunatic.Before coming, Lin Yu wanted to tell Ji Shanye about his mother, but he never thought, what would it be like if Ji Shanye knew?

This is not a trivial matter, not a trivial matter that can be comforted and passed.Ji Shanye may regard him as a mentally ill lunatic, maybe in his eyes, he is no different from those demented and screaming lunatics in the mental hospital.

At that time, he was no longer Ji Shanye's lover.But a patient with no future.

Lin Yu didn't want Ji Shanye to look at him like that.

A madman doesn't deserve the love of a normal person.He should not stand with a star like Ji Shanye.It was a mistake for them to be together.

In the past, Lin Yu took it secretly, and now it's time to return it and make everything return to normal.

"What's the reason?" Ji Shanye was very anxious: "You talk."

"Because I don't like you anymore." Lin Yu wanted to be more thorough: "You know I'm not your fan, and I don't have any filters for you. I just don't like you anymore and just want to separate."

Ji Shanye looked at him and didn't speak for a long time.

Lin Yu knew that what he said were all lies, but he actually liked Ji Shanye a lot.But he still persisted and continued: "You are a star, and I am an ordinary person. It is too troublesome to fall in love with you, and our world is different, so let's get together and break up."

After a long time, Ji Shanye just chuckled.He never had any answer.

Lin Yu kept his head down, his heart hurt badly, he was afraid that he would cry, and he didn't want to stay in this room any longer, so he got up and said, "If there's nothing else, I'll go back first."

"Wait a minute." Ji Shanye stopped him again: "I haven't said you can go."

Lin Yu's body froze, he didn't look back, only heard Ji Shanye say: "You said you don't like me anymore, can your liking end so easily?"

There was another long silence, and Ji Shanye said, "Do you know what you mean when you tell me this today?"

Lin Yu replied softly, "I know."

"Then I hope you won't regret it in the future." Lin Yu could hear how angry Ji Shanye's tone was.

He was a little out of breath, and after a moment of calm, he said: "I'll go first."

Ji Shanye watched Lin Yu walk to the door, but he didn't look back, as if he had no hesitation, without any nostalgia for him, he closed the door with a bang.

It's over between them.

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