childhood sweetheart to marry you

16 Chapter 16 Lost

"During those days, why didn't you ask me for advice, but went to that Li Qianlan? I don't seem to have anything to offend you?" Xu Ruijie has always been puzzled by Zhao Yifei's abnormal behavior in the second semester of his second year of junior high school. Asking him questions is because he basically always avoids him after he smashes him to smoke.

"Are we here to watch cartoons, or to chat?" Zhao Yifei was upset.

"Then look, I'll go out for a while." The temptation of cartoons to Xu Ruijie is absolutely no less than the temptation to Zhao Yifei, and at this moment, Xu Ruijie has no interest in cartoons, not because he doesn't like them I saw it, but it was because of Zhao Yifei next to him, his feelings for Li Qianlan, and his alienation from him, which made him extremely depressed and irritable.

Seeing him walk out of the room, Zhao Yifei didn't respond. He was still concentrating on watching his favorite cartoons. He couldn't help but feel confused by Xu Ruijie's inexplicable questions and his sullen expression. Why do you always like to mention Li Qianlan in front of him?Li Qianlan talked all the time, what happened to him?

Xu Ruijie came out and wandered around, and found that Zhao Yifei didn't follow him at all, as if what he was doing now, even if he was angry, it wouldn't affect him. He really failed as a friend, and he felt really uncomfortable. He never He had never been so uncomfortable before, just because he saw Zhao Yifei and Li Qianlan approaching, he felt uncomfortable all over, no matter how it looked, it was not pleasing to the eye, and he was disturbed by their affairs all day long.

Zhao Yifei only watched half of it, so he turned off the TV, because Xu Ruijie didn't watch it, and he didn't have the mood to watch it.

He went out of the room and saw Xu Ruijie sitting on a chair in the yard basking in the sun, with a preoccupied look on his face.

He moved a chair and sat next to him: "What's wrong with you?"

"Aren't you watching?" Xu Ruijie felt better when he heard Xiang Xing and Zhao Yifei's voice.

"You don't even watch it, do you think it's interesting for me to watch it alone?" Zhao Yifei raised his head and looked at the blue sky with white clouds on it. Today is really a beautiful day with a clear sky, which makes people feel refreshed.

Hearing these words, Xu Ruijie's boredom just disappeared immediately, and a smile appeared on the corner of his mouth: "Really?" Does this mean that his friend is still very important in his heart.

"Let's go! Go in and watch together!" Zhao Yifei stopped talking nonsense, stood up, pulled Xu Ruijie up, and walked to the room.

Xu Ruijie was dragged by him and had no choice but to follow him.

When watching TV, Xu Ruijie looked at TV for a while and Zhao Yifei for a while. In the end, he didn't know whether he was watching TV or Zhao Yifei.

It's not that Zhao Yifei didn't know, after watching several episodes, Zhao Yifei finally said: "Xu Ruijie, are you watching cartoons?"

"I'm watching." Xu Ruijie didn't know what Zhao Yifei meant by asking this question.

"Why do I feel like you're looking at me?" Zhao Yifei muttered softly.

"I found that you look better the longer you grow, even better than that Li Qianlan." Xu Ruijie looked a little obsessed.

"What kind of rotten metaphor is this? Li Qianlan is a girl and I am a boy. Is the gender comparable?" Zhao Yifei gave him a blank look, and it was this look that made him feel something was wrong in Xu Ruijie's expression. The kind of affection that can't be extricated from the obsession with a long-awaited crush.

Under Xu Ruijie's sizing up, Zhao Yifei couldn't help jumping in his heart, what kind of nympho is this Xu Ruijie!At that time, he didn't take it too seriously, but he was a little disgusted.

At this moment, Xu Ruijie only had one thought in his head, which was to kiss Zhao Yifei, even if it was just on the cheek. After all, the idea was just an idea. He didn't dare to do that. He knew Zhao Yifei's temper. If he carried it out so hastily, Zhao Yifei might never be friends with him again. He was afraid of losing Zhao Yifei as a friend and being rejected, alienated and disgusted by Zhao Yifei, so he had to keep his love for him silently in his heart.

"You still watch!" Zhao Yifei looked back at the TV. When he went to see Xu Ruijie again, he found that Xu Ruijie was still staring at his face blankly, as if petrified.

"Oh...you watch TV, I'll just watch you." Xu Ruijie complained softly, reaching out to break Zhao Yifei's head.

"You, what you said..." For some reason, Zhao Yifei blushed when provoked by Xu Ruijie's words, and became embarrassed. Today's Xu Ruijie is too strange.

"Yifei, is it because I knew you smoked, and you were afraid that I would blame you, so you deliberately distanced yourself from me and started asking Li Qianlan for advice." Xu Ruijie guessed, and he hoped that his guess was what Zhao Yifei was thinking.

Zhao Yifei did not expect that Xu Ruijie could guess his mind, and he guessed his mind. Hearing what he said, Zhao Yifei felt warm. There are not many people in this world who can understand and understand his mind, and Xu Ruijie is one of them. , can always be so appetizing to him.

"I smoked not because you ignored me, but I can't quit now, it will take time." Zhao Yifei frowned, answered him, and watched "Slam Dunk" on TV seriously, For fear of missing a shot.

"I'm sorry, I ignored you during that time. Actually, there was a reason. You should quit smoking. I hate the smell of cigarettes the most." Xu Ruijie didn't tell Zhao Yifei the truth of the reason, he was afraid that Zhao Yifei would know that all of this was actually true. It was his mother Qi Mei who threatened him, so he felt dissatisfied with his mother. He didn't want his mother to become an obstacle and barrier to the development of their relationship.

"I won't be able to quit for a while, give me some time." Zhao Yifei's tone was very sincere.

"I'll give you time." Xu Ruijie didn't continue to tell him to quit smoking.

It's just that, this time, one year after another, because Zhao Yifei's feelings for Li Qianlan made him more and more confused and uncontrollable, and Li Qianlan was always far and near to him, which made him unpredictable.I don’t know if it’s because the older I get, the more I value my academic performance and family background, and because of this, Li Qianlan is more willing to get closer to Xu Ruijie who has a good academic performance, and is even more alienated from him. During these days , Zhao Yifei not only did not quit smoking, but also smoked more fiercely, as if he wanted to use cigarettes to vent his unhappiness.

During the days when Zhao Yifei crazily used cigarettes to anesthetize himself, Xu Ruijie felt a little desperate for him, and refused to listen to him no matter how much he persuaded him, and finally told him to quit smoking, or he would break up with him if he didn't quit.As for the three years in high school, he didn't ask whether Zhao Yifei had quit smoking, which led to their meeting again. Xu Ruijie thought Zhao Yifei was still smoking.

Back to school again, it was the third year of junior high school.

Xu Ruijie and Li Qianlan are 15 years old, Zhao Yifei and Shen Ting are 14 years old, Shao Feng is also 15 years old.

At that time, the development of the girls was basically complete. Some developed late like elementary school students, and early developed like high school students. No matter in terms of height or body shape, the characteristics of girls became more obvious, and boys also began to have Adam's apple. , some have Adam's apple earlier, and some develop later.

They were in the same class again, and the class began to change drastically. Zhao Yifei and Li Qianlan became tablemates, and Xu Ruijie and Shao Feng were tablemates.

At that time, most of the boys and girls were at the same table, and the girls were at the same table. Because in the final exam of last semester, the teachers saw Zhao Yifei's academic performance and attributed most of the credit to Li Qianlan. The purpose of arranging Li Qianlan and Zhao Yifei together is to let Li Qianlan continue to help Zhao Yifei and make Zhao Yifei's study flourish.

However, their kindness was completely ruined by Zhao Yifei.

For Zhao Yifei, this arrangement undoubtedly gave him a good opportunity to get in touch with Li Qianlan. In the days to come, Zhao Yifei spent all his energy on studying on Li Qianlan, which also caused his academic performance not to improve. , also decreased.

The seats of Xu Ruijie and Shao Feng are only one row behind Zhao Yifei and Li Qianlan, no matter what they do in front, they will be clearly seen by the two behind.

Zhao Yifei chose to live in the school in the third year of junior high school. The reason is very simple, because in the first few days of school, the teacher asked how many students in the class lived, and Li Qianlan raised her hand to indicate the accommodation. When Zhao Yifei saw her raise her hand, he also raised her hand Xu Ruijie behind him also raised his hand, because he saw Zhao Yifei raising his hand, so he raised his hand. Then, Shen Ting and Shao Feng raised their hands.

Next, Zhao Yifei, Xu Ruijie, and Shao Feng were assigned to a dormitory, while Li Qianlan and Shen Ting were also assigned to a dormitory.

Shao Feng and Xu Ruijie both had the same thoughts, they were all overjoyed to share the same dormitory with Zhao Yifei, the three boys occupied the lower bunk of the dormitory early, Zhao Yifei was near the door, Xu Ruijie put Zhao Yifei opposite The bed was occupied, so Shao Feng occupied the bed next to Zhao Yifei's bathroom.

In this way, Xu Ruijie can secretly look at Zhao Yifei's sleeping face while sleeping, even if he turns over, he can see clearly any move, he likes to stare at him all the time.

Shao Feng who was next to Zhao Yifei's bed, when Zhao Yifei used a cardboard box to cover the gap between the two beds, Shao Feng quickly stopped him, and found a transparent plastic bag, and dug a square hole in the middle of the box , he glued the plastic bag to the hole with transparent glue, after everything was arranged.

Shao Feng began to explain: "In this way, it will be much brighter and more open, and you won't feel that it's covered by the cardboard box and there will be a stuffy and breathless feeling, what do you think?"

Zhao Yifei didn't think too much, looked at Shao Feng's masterpiece, and nodded to himself: "It's really much brighter."

But when Shao Feng looked at Zhao Yifei from the transparent bag, it was a blur, and suddenly thought of something, and tore off the plastic bag.

Zhao Yifei saw that he started tearing the plastic bag glued in the middle for some reason, but he ignored it. Anyway, how he likes to toss has nothing to do with him, and he doesn't care.

The face of Xu Ruijie on the opposite side is getting more and more disgusted at this time. He is disgusted with Shao Feng's actions. If he wants to see Zhao Yifei, he just says, why is he open-minded.Still he was fast and smart, so he directly found a bed opposite Zhao Yifei, and the other side was not covered by a curtain, so he could look at it as he wanted, which would save trouble!

The number of students in the dormitory gradually increased, and there was only one lower bunk and four upper bunks left. A dormitory can accommodate eight people in total. In the end, there were six people in total, and two of them had poor academic performance. The classmate who hangs out with Zhao Yifei, and the other is a classmate who is quiet and reticent in the middle school.

The square hole in the middle of Shao Feng and Zhao Yifei's bed was finally covered with scotch tape, so that he could see Zhao Yifei's every move on the bed as long as he raised his head a little. This masterpiece made him excited for a long time.

Although the three of them live in the same dormitory, their work and rest schedules are completely different. Zhao Yifei will go out to surf the Internet with his group of friends after evening self-study, and Xu Ruijie will return to the dormitory to work hard after evening self-study. When doing homework, Shao Feng would take a stroll around the school playground, or go to the canteen to buy food and then come back to start doing homework.

Every morning, Xu Ruijie is the first to wake up, Shao Feng is the second, and Zhao Yifei is always the last. Of course Xu Ruijie will call Zhao Yifei first every time he wakes up. Every time he is ignored by Zhao Yifei, it’s not that he doesn’t ignore him, but he just sleeps too hard Xu Ruijie gave up in order not to be late, Shao Feng also called, but also gave up.

As a result, Zhao Yifei was late very frequently, so often that he would be called to the corridor by the teacher to punish him for a lesson, and at this time, Xu Ruijie would always stare at him with a very pitiful and distressed look.

As for Li Qianlan, she didn't pay attention to him, and occasionally peeked at him. After seeing Zhao Yifei's gaze, she quickly put it aside, as if the peeking scene just now had never happened.

Every time he sees Li Qianlan's indifferent expression, Zhao Yifei feels inexplicably uncomfortable. He has been with Li Qianlan for a long time, and it is not difficult to find that he has a kind of affection for Li Qianlan that exceeds that between his deskmates and even friends. He cared about what Li Qianlan thought and said about him. Such feelings made him feel uneasy, inexplicably excited and nervous.

Every time Xu Ruijie saw Zhao Yifei peeking at Li Qianlan instead of him, the disappointment in his heart was like a cold, it would always come, and it couldn't be completely cured.